My Apologies

This is how I feel because,

Anxious

Depressed

Sad

Angry

Embarrassed

Frustrated

Confused

Fearful

Withdrawn

Sorry

This is how the USA is viewed;

Misogynistic

Race bating

Bully

Pathological liar

Ignorant

Egocentric

Capitalist

White supremacist (Alt-White/Alt-Right)

Isolationist

Fear monger

Power hungry

Sadistic

Torturer

Oligarchy

Denying science and facts

Exclusionary

Elitist

Reactionary

Impulsive

Erratic

Sexual predator

Delusional

Xenophobic

Toutes mes excuses

C’est que je ressens car,

Est anxieux

Depressive

Tristesse

En colère

Embarrassé

Frustré

Confus

Craintif

Retire

être désolé

Cet comment aux ETATS-UNIS sont perçue ;

Misogyne

Course

Ben Bully

Pathologique

Menteur

Ignorants

Égocentriques

Capitaliste

prônant la suprématie blanche monger peur isolationniste (Alt-blanc/Alt-droite)

Power hungry

Sadique

Tortionnaire

Oligarchie

Niant science et prédateur

D’exclusion

élitiste

Réactionnaire

Impulsif

Erratique

Sexuel faits

Délire

Xénophobe

It is Difficult to be Indifferent at Work

Paranoid (Suspicious – Fearful) – Trusting – Faith – Hope - Confident

Passive Aggressive (Negative - Uncertain) – Assertive – Positive - Optimistic - Clear

Petty (Narrow – Mean) – Generous – Important – Expansive

Personally (Subjectively) – Objectively – Accurately – Impartially - Fairly

I’m trying to avoid the four ‘P’s and their cousins, and I am trying to come up with an alternative.

I don’t like being around someone who is suspicious of my actions.  If they fear my intentions, I generally lose their support.  If they don’t feel they can trust me they will be negative and uncertain and what they say will be narrow minded and may even be mean.  When I make a general statement, they may take it personally and then they can’t fairly judge my narrative.

So I want to be more confident and trusting, have faith in others and hope for the best.  If I am more positive and clearly describe my view in optimistic terms, my statements my seem less threatening and be more easily supported.  I’ll try to be more generous and include others in my efforts to seek out what is best for everyone. 

If I objectively and accurately state my views maybe I’ll be treated fairly and receive an impartial resolution.

Irons in the Fire

By using a linear set of actions, you can make clear everything you are doing, will do, and have ever done.

If you fill out a spreadsheet with the list of your goals and accomplishments down the left hand side, and then to the right of each make a list of all the steps necessary to accomplish each goal, you can order the steps in a timeline of infinite perfection.

Of course, this is only possible for you to do with past events where you can delineate the steps as they happen (and of course, you have to put in the recording of the steps as steps).  If you wish to fill out the spreadsheet before it happens you will fail, because no one can perfectly predict every step but those steps do or at least will exist once your goal is accomplished.

Therefore, your task is; 1 to pick the most pertinent task and then; 2 to pick the next step for that task and then; 3 to carry out that task while; 4 you keep in mind other pressing tasks; and 5 their necessary steps and the proper order of those steps so that; 6 you accomplish your overlapping tasks in a more or less efficient manner.

_What I See_

My problem is not that I see too little

It is that I see too much

And think that what I see

Is meaningful.

If I am driving and the posted speed is 35 MPH and I am following someone who is doing 33 MPH I consider their behavior to be inappropriate.

If I am driving and do not know the posted speed limit but believe that, my understanding of the traffic rules that govern speed limits on this road are good enough to guess that the speed limit is most likely 55 MPH and I am following someone going 45 MPH I assume I would consider their slow driving as inappropriate.

In both cases, I would most likely assume that the person in front of me should not be behind the wheel if they cannot drive, what I consider to be, the appropriate speed limit.

If I did not know and did not assume I knew the ‘proper’ speed limit, I would just drive.

Strong motivator

Fear of that we cannot control and know, is a strong motivator.

Species (the species is the principal natural taxonomic unit, ranking below a genus (Homo) and denoted by a Latin binomial, e.g., Homo sapiens) needs are understood and fulfilled by us, are realized at some level, or we would not exist.  No man is an island, or a rock for that matter.

The extent, to which any two humans get along, varies.  To discuss ‘human’ needs, in a macro sense, we must consider only the modal/successful human.  This essay is not about individual success or failure.

We must assume the existence of successful human drives/motives, to find sustenance, shelter and a mate, because humans have existed for some time and continue to thrive.  Without the success of these drives, we wouldn’t exist.  What pushes humans beyond a subsistence existence?  Is it fear?

Can we attribute everything we do that exceeds striving for subsistence/existence to fear?  Fear of hunger not fear of starvation.  Fear of being cold and/or alone, not fear of starving to death or not procreating.  Fear of our children’s future turning out badly and their not procreating not fear of them ending up working at a fast food restraint into their forties.  Fear of a bully’s threat not fear of being murdered.  Fear of humiliating debilitation in old age.

Do we do what we do because ‘we can project into the future and are afraid of what we cannot know or predict’?

Lebensraum

Lebensraum Le·bens·raum (German pronunciation: [ˈleːbənsˌʁaʊm], "living space") refers to conceptions and policies of a form of settler colonialism connected with agrarianism that existed in Germany from the 1890s to the 1940s. One variant of this policy was supported by the Nazi Party and Nazi Germany.

The U.S.
The world-wide establishment of capitalism, by means of economic globalization by the U.S. has been called the "American Lebensraum", which is criticized as a neocolonialism and as cultural imperialism.

Judgement

The concepts of positive and negative are ubiquitous.  We depict these concepts as an infinite line in both directions with a ‘0’ in the middle.  The further you go to the right the more positive the number and to the left the more negative.  These concepts are similar to our perception of good and evil.  The analogy is not perfect but it is useful.  That which is principled, from good to better and bad to worse, is unlike numbers.  The good/bad continuum is not a simple progression of things getting better or worse with zero in the middle.  Still we agree that some things are less evil, negative, than others.  Kicking someone in the shins isn’t as bad as shooting them in the head.  A mass murder in a church is not as evil as genocide.  And some things are better than others, giving a friend twenty bucks to cover a minor debt isn’t as good as loving someone enough to marry them and honor them for the rest of your life and being civil at your Thanksgiving dinner isn’t as positive a behavior as giving up your life so others may survive.  In this model the good things are positive forces in our world and the evil things are negative.  Sometimes it is difficult to determine which good or which evil goes where on the continuum or even what goes on the good side and what goes on the bad side of zero.  Like I said, it’s not a perfect analogy but it illustrates my point.

So let’s construct a perfect world where we eliminate all behavior and actions less than zero.  There is no bad, nothing negative.  There is no evil.  And in this perfect world once evil is eliminated zero behavior comes into question.  ‘You could have done something!’  Sooner or later the initial euphoria over eradicating all evil wears off.  More needs to be done and zero behavior is magically done away with too.  There is no room for not behaving positively in a perfect world where there is inequity and need.

In this perfect world there are no evil deeds and no zero actions, just positive deeds, only the good line of progressively more positive behaviors stretching on and on, each one more positive than the last.  How long will satisfaction with nothing but good last?  How long until someone questions the small good things?  How long until someone asks ‘Couldn’t you have given him forty bucks instead of twenty?  Ya know, he really could have used an extra twenty bucks’.  And a push to eliminate the small, enhance-able good behaviors will begin, again and again ad nauseum.

That which is good and that which is evil is a matter of definition and degree.  Definition and degree that only exist because we judge, because there will always be those who say, ‘You should have…’  We cannot eradicate evil because we cannot do away with the capacity to judge.  As long as the capacity to judge exists, someone will judge something as bad.

You cannot eliminate the use of the word ‘should’ in your vocabulary or the speech and minds of others.  You can try to stop saying ‘should’ but even if you are successful, it will still be there in your head.

Whenever the word ‘should’ is used, you have the obligation to yourself and those you love to ask ‘Why?’  Make the ‘should’ justify its judgment.  Make the ends justify the means and then justify the ends. If the ‘should’ can be justified, maybe something ‘should’ change.

Maybe something ‘should’ be done.  And maybe not, we live in a world where ‘zero’ actions still exist.  In the small part of the world that you presume to control you owe it to yourself to be the one who decides.

Random Thoughts...

Upon meeting someone for the first time (or when first viewing their blog) I am interested in learning what their moral argument is?  I don’t care what or where they eat.  It doesn’t matter to me what sports team(s) they like/support or where they’ve been.  If they are an artist, with talent, I may enjoy their art but only if it suits my tastes.  What I want to know is; what is right and wrong to them, and why?  How do they defend their actions, their life, their goals?  Their deeds and misdeeds, their ends.

I am more and more intrigued by the question; if there is an infinite being could we understand its plan?  By plan I mean, rational, goal(s), logic.  And by human standards is the plan even to be judged weather or not it is logical or rational?  I have no reason to believe an infinite’s wisdom would be comprehensible to me.  An eternal being that existed before time and will continue to exist once time stops must have a perspective that no human can comprehend.

There is always at least one clear path forward, although the path available may not be the path you prefer.

Set before the powerful, are difficult things, before the weak, only small things.

Things turn out as they should be, as they have to be.

To Choose or Not.

Choosing to die is unnecessary.  You do not have to choose death, sooner or later it will choose you.  But to live, that is something you must choose.  There is no assurance that you will exist from one moment to the next.  At some point, even if you choose to live you will not.  If you are going to put some energy into a choice, choose to live.  And if you continue to breathe, at least you know that it is, in part, due to your choice.  And when you no longer choose to live just stop.

Life is a deceit, a pretty one admittedly but a deceit all the same.  It is fragile and often impossible to maintain but quite worthy of your best effort.  Death is so much more honest; simple, straight forward, permanent, easy.  Life takes a lot of effort; all the choices, all the pitfalls, all the unknowns, all the obscure traps.  Death’s not like life, one choice and wham, it’s over; no more struggling, no more surprises, no more mistakes, no more responsibilities.  No more having to choose.

Each time I wake it is a new day, a new life.

Each time I go to sleep the old day, the old life, disappears.

The meaning is not contained in the words.

The words can be written a thousand times and if no one understands the meaning

it is as if they had not been.

The meaning resides in you.

Why is there something rather than nothing?  

If there was nothing you wouldn’t be asking that question.

If you are infinite, without end, and all you create is finite 

how do you feel when your creations pass away?

There is always a clear path forward 

although it may not be the path you prefer.